Thursday, September 12, 2013

Determined?: Confessions of a Photo-holic

This weekend I am working with a photographer I have never met.  We are coming together for just the day; my hope and plan is to learn as much and help much as I possibly can.  I'm excited... but more than excited I am very nervous.

I feel silly but it doesn't change the reality.  It makes me laugh to a degree cause I am all "Ms Confident" save for my photography.  The few times I have opened myself up to other photographers it hasn't gone well.  I was once told that I was so bad there was no point in ever trying to be a professional photographer; I should pack it in and try and find something else to love.  To say the least I was heart broken when she typed those words... on the Facebook wall.  YES, that did happen.  Any of you out there been publicly humiliated?  Me too... don't feel bad sometimes people are mean I hope more often then not that it is for a purpose but sometimes... yea...

That said I am skiddish.  I am excited to just observe him at work.  I'm excited to see how another photographer processes through the day; see what will work for me and what won't.  Think of the day from a completely different prospective... all the same I'm nervous.  What if I ask a stupid question?  People say "there are no stupid questions"... but they don't really believe it.  I have prepped myself, thinking through things I want to talk about, what things I want to keep an eye out for...

Ultimately I have come to this place: I don't care what he thinks of me.  Or at least that is what I am trying to believe.  I want to go into this with a great attitude and learn; if he doesn't like my questions oh well, I wanted the answer!  Now if only the butterflies in my stomach would listen to me!

Live. Love. Loud. 

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