I don't quite get it but I swear it is almost like each wedding is my first. I get so nervous. Even when each of my weekends it taken up by weddings I never seem to get settled. I'm nervous and a bit scared before each. I sit in my car, take a few deep breaths and a say a prayer before I set off for the day. Once I'm in te mix of things the nerves take a back burner. I'm busy and in the zone. You only have so much time but nothing can be forgotten.
I don't quite get it. I really thought at some point the nerves would abate. That one day I would just wake up with all the swagger in the world, I visualized myself as Gaston from Beauty and the Beast... only more friendly. The nerves work for me. At this point I think I would get nervous about not feeling nervous. It is like is a part of the routine/process.
I was scared to share my "nerves" with other people, photographers especially, because I figured they would see it as a rookie move but I was reading years ago about a few other famous photographers, Michael Jordan Smith and Jasmine Star where the two that stuck out to me, and they spoke of their own nerves. I figured if they, with all their accomplishments and glory could be nervous then it was not only fitting but basically required that mine be acceptable :D
It is funny the things we hold back about ourselves because we are afraid of judgement. How often we check and triple check ourselves to make sure we "fit the bill"... I wonder how much more we might get out of life if we just let ourselves out... exactly as we are.
So today I confess: I am a professional wedding photographer who is a bunch of nerves the night before every wedding!
What will you confess about yourself today?
Live. Love. Loud.