So much of my life is taken up by profoundly mundane things (see what I did there:). Between all the normal, pre-baby activities, day to day and then you add another being solely dependent on you for its existence. It is both amazing, overwhelming, heartwarming and scary. I don't think I have ever been in such contact with as many bodily fluids in my life. All the things I saw happening to other mothers and wondered how they didn't hate life... its this amazing thing called hormones!
That and with those amazing built in hormones you have this very small, adorable and completely helpless being looking up at you with all the possible adoration. How can you not love it? How can you not want to help it?
Each day this little being changes and grows. It is like a never ending science experiment. Example: I am playing with my daughter's hair whenever she is sleepy so that later she will associate that with sleep: thus making putting her down easier!
I always thought of how empty it seemed: how can you play with that baby for hours? It just lays there... People tell you, "you'll change". People tell you, "your kids will be different". People tell you, "kids are the hardest work but the best rewards". I never believed "people". I thought they were crazy to think that just because they found those things to be true they can't be universal!
I honestly don't know if they are "universal" but I can tell you it is crazy how many of "those things" were true for me... at least so far. My husband laughs at me because of how much I have changed. I get it. I see it. I just can't seem to help it and I guess considering Luna's sake it's a great thing.
So for those of you out there sans kids: We do look crazy. To be fair: we kind of are. But remember however much you judge now you'll be apologizing later (ie: see my confessions and apologies post... I have no high horse I was the judger-mc-judger-son).
For those of you with kids: I will once again state I am sorry I doubted and judged. This is a crazy crazy crazy life we lead... with oh so many awesome moments!
Live. Love. Loud.