Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Gumption, Grit and Grins

My fingers dance across the keys jumping from one to the next in hopes that some magic might ignite.  I often feel like I allow myself to get bogged down.  Do you ever have those overwhelming moments of there is just not enough time?  Maybe it is just me?

(photo credit to Not Streaming)

Today I choose sunlight/joy/brightness.  Focusing on the bogging doesn't help.  It doesn't make you feel any less overwhelmed... it doesn't allow you to all the sudden accomplish all your goals but instead it makes you want to recluse on the corner and allow the terrible to mound on the other side of the room.  The thing with that is when you finally do face life it is worse then when you left it cause let's face it life never seems to slow down.

So today I decide that I only have one 6/30/2015 and I will celebrate it... with hard work and gumption.    If you're needing inspiration I suggest His Girl Friday.  Puts a smile on my face a fire under my rump :D

On to more rump roasting I have to admit to you that I failed at this last months goals.  No excuses.  So facing the music here are my sad attempt this past month at my goals:

  • Go on a date with Chris
  • Plan out a vacation for this year
  • Actually read something that isn't about photography!
  • Keep up limited Sugar (most days :D)

  • Meet with a wedding professional I have never met
  • Submit another wedding for publication
  • Set up an intentional session
  • Decide on decor for possible Wedding show

July Goals:

  • Get active
  • Make sure to spend sometime with family
  • Plan out some of trip to ICELAND (more on that later)
  • Shoot Luna's 12 month pictures

  • Shoot intentionally
  • Socialize with a wedding professional
  • Keep up to date on editing
  • Decide on Show products

If you have had a rough June I urge you to join me, because I need the support :D, and shake it off and start July with an element of Grit!

So here is to a lovely and humid July!  
Live. Love. Loud.

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

A Long Year

Today marks a year since life changed in a most dramatic fashion, with the introduction of my beautiful daughter.

This last year has been a crazy ride for which I am ever grateful.  Life has changed in a crazy way but I wouldn't trade it.  The self sacrifice and the long days and nights have changed me so much for the better.

To my beautiful daughter Luna: I thank God for you almost every day and am ever grateful to spend all the days with you!!

Live. Love. Loud.

Thursday, June 18, 2015

Treading on thin life

There are times when I feel like I'm treading water but someone is adding weights to my legs...

That is dramatic I know but it is how I feel.  It isn't in business specifically or in my personal life but in trying to find a balance between the two and all the things that need to get done.

I love my daughter but I never felt this way before her.  Now when I get time alone I feel like I have to spend a good deal of the time thinking about remembering what it is I need to get done instead of just being able to accomplish it.

There are moments that I want to have that TV sitcom day.  There are problems but they are all solved in thirty minutes or less.  There is a cheese factor but on one of those days when I feel like I can't keep my head above water I can't help but think it could be nice...

The truth is the hardest times in my life have yielded the best results.  No one changes and refines themselves when they don't have to... why would you.  It is way more fun to just go for the ride and enjoy whatever is happening.  But when those tough times hit, whatever that might look like, that we can really show who we are and change and improve cause we have no choice.  I believe in God, in a personal relationship kind of way not a "I just created the world and don't care anymore kind of way", because this belief I know that if I lean to him for strength that though the bad times/trying times won't necessarily end they will be easier and at the end... whenever that is I always come up with a few less rough edges.

So here is to knowing that the tough/trying/struggling times in our life do end... at some point and that if we feel like we are sinking all we need is to call out for help... now if I could only I remembered that day to day.

Live. Love. Loud.

Tuesday, June 16, 2015

It's about time

Do you ever have to do lists that just seem to linger?  Never fully completed ... I always make excuses for them.  "this week was busy"  "I need to do these things first..."  You name it.  Basically making excuses for not completing what I should have.

How often do these small things trip us up?  I mean not necessarily the literal small thing but more the essence of what they represent.  Lack of attention to detail?  Disregard to forcing self discipline?

I'm tired of it.  I'm tired of feeling overwhelmed... it happens when I let things collect.  Life gets in the way and in the moment the idea of just leaving it sitting there sounds easier.  But is it really???  Soon enough if you don't keep on top of it the one thing becomes a pile which seems to grow without much help into a crushing mountain.  A mountain that seems impossible to conquer.

If only I would stop myself from the lazy step...  If only I would just complete... do...  Alas it seems it is impossible.  Or maybe it's just me.  When I feel like I get a hold of one area of my life another seems to be on the fritz.

Well here is to the fritz and learning to do life a midst the chaos... I mean it isn't going to stop so we might as well get on board!

So today I celebrate:

I finally did it.  I got an official URL for my blog! I know... I'm a little late to the game but I'm still excited even if it is silly late :D

So this is me celebrating this step of "officiallity" :D

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Budget +Garner Studios = Fabulous

You have those dreams in life... you know those perfect feelings of accomplishment and then you wake up?  Maybe that's just me but that's how I feel about design.  I have a hard time saying no to things... I want all the things and somehow that doesn't work with design... weird?  Despite my lack of skill I still want to have the pretty things so when planning my wedding and trying to figure out my invitation suite I had to turn to many different avenues and search high and low before I came to find the look/design I wanted.

Recently I came across this really neat website.  It is 
Gartner Studios.  It is for those of you DIY brides who want to have an elegant and personal look but do it all yourself.  This website has a wide range in looks, color palates and has a wide assortment of invitational sets including response cards that would fit a varied number of wedding themes.  Want more?  They have wedding stationary, save the date, thank you notes, wedding programs.... you get the drift.  With little time invested you can have a nice look that won't be quite as cookie cutter as just grabbing a box at Target!

It is great for a bride with a budget who is wanting to get the most bang for her design budget!  But don't just take my word for it jump on over and take a peak!

Live. Love. Loud.

Thursday, June 4, 2015

Confessions and excuses

So much of my life is taken up by the busy.

You all know what I'm talking about right?!  The endless dishes/laundry, the balancing family and work, the trying to keep up your personal finance, your gathering with friends, trying to eat healthy and maybe exercise??  The list keeps running on and on.

I often allow the "busy" to take over the important.  Yes all is good with paying bills and it is required and all that but how much more is it important to take the time to enjoy my daughter the one and only time she will be 9 months and 20 days or whatever the case may be?  How often I find myself getting short at Luna cause she wants my attention and love and that desire is getting in the way of my making dinner or editing photos or you name it.  All of those things have their place and I need to do them but how much more so is it ultimately important for my daughter to know I value her and love her more than my clients, my own ocd or need to get things done when I want them done.

Sitting still isn't a strong suit of mine but there are times when it is what needs to be done.  I need to take the time to just be with Chris.  I need to take the time and allow Luna to babble to me so that even though I have no idea what she said she feels like she was understood.

I struggle.  I struggle with this as a reality.  The truth is my actions show that I value my own thoughts/to-do's/desires above showing love those closest to me.  How twisted is that?!?

Live. Love. Loud.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Goals: Living intentionally

Each month passes much like the last.  I feel at times that I need to be intentional about making a memory of my time.  To not allow the melding of months but have at least one distinctive memory to mark it forever.  There is only one June 2015!  How to make it real and lasting and not just another moment in the busy we call life. 

I wish I could say I knew the best way.  Not so much for your betterment, though were I better person that's obviously what I'd say, but instead for my own.  I mean to actually know how to make each day, moment, month be recognized as the real gift it is... I'm saying I'd be doing a happy dance if I knew that secret!

Instead I will pontificate and wonder in my lack of understanding all while I tell you my monthly goals cause let's be serious I love me some multitasking!

So last month I told you my goals were:


  • Continue exercising
  • Try to be better about sugar
  • Spend more time with friends
  • Set aside time to do some reading


  • Submit wedding to publication
  • Add hot topic button to blog
  • Look over 2016 bridal shows
  • Get Updated Canvas Sample
  • Meet up with Wedding professional
Obviously I'm not always the best about keeping to all my goals but all the same I see it as very important to write out intentional plans on where I will get going otherwise: how will I know I arrived?!?

June Goals

  • Go on a date with Chris
  • Plan out a vacation for this year
  • Actually read something that isn't about photography!
  • Keep up limited Sugar (most days :D)

  • Meet with a wedding professional I have never met
  • Submit another wedding for publication
  • Set up an intentional session
  • Decide on decor for possible Wedding show
How will you be spending your month of June?  Do you have any exciting travel plans?!

Live. Love. Loud.