Thursday, June 4, 2015

Confessions and excuses

So much of my life is taken up by the busy.

You all know what I'm talking about right?!  The endless dishes/laundry, the balancing family and work, the trying to keep up your personal finance, your gathering with friends, trying to eat healthy and maybe exercise??  The list keeps running on and on.

I often allow the "busy" to take over the important.  Yes all is good with paying bills and it is required and all that but how much more is it important to take the time to enjoy my daughter the one and only time she will be 9 months and 20 days or whatever the case may be?  How often I find myself getting short at Luna cause she wants my attention and love and that desire is getting in the way of my making dinner or editing photos or you name it.  All of those things have their place and I need to do them but how much more so is it ultimately important for my daughter to know I value her and love her more than my clients, my own ocd or need to get things done when I want them done.

Sitting still isn't a strong suit of mine but there are times when it is what needs to be done.  I need to take the time to just be with Chris.  I need to take the time and allow Luna to babble to me so that even though I have no idea what she said she feels like she was understood.

I struggle.  I struggle with this as a reality.  The truth is my actions show that I value my own thoughts/to-do's/desires above showing love those closest to me.  How twisted is that?!?

Live. Love. Loud.

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